byee
I tried, I walked back to our memories
I put my hand out, you rejected
Tried to reach out, but you ignored it.
Knew it was my mistake, I let you go
so I tried, but you rejected.
This time it will be your mistake.
I'm not coming back, tried once, twice
too many times....
Lets be friends I said.
You said okay, but yet you fear me.
All I ever wanted was to be in your
life.
We dont gotta be lovers, I never
intended that. You were my bestfriend
so it was hard to let go.
But it's pretty clear, those hints you
give. Friends is no go for you as well.
Time to say bye, not only to a guy
that you fall in love with.
But a guy that was your
bestfriend.
Bye.
mhmm...
Need to express...
It was all my fault, I let you go. I was angry, I didn't appreciate, fustrated, & pressured by my friends. I made a hasty decesion to let you go. Oh how I reget... We fought, we had our rough times.. but baby we had so many good times as well. I try to rip out those memories, burned the pictures, stash all ur stuff, made you change your password. Which I regret since I did ask you to change it 1000X, and you never did...there was prob a reason why u didnt at first.. cuz your password was my name. I thought I could move on, but man was I wrong. Every second you come into my mind, every place I pass seems to bring memories of you and me. Damn, I know I lost a good one even God knows. You brought the light to my world, even though you were busy, parents strict, different school, and prob didnt see each other as much as other couples do. However, all those seconds, minutes, hrs that were spent with you were the best I ever had all my 16 years. You brought light to my world, and made me smile with that gorgeous smile. I could never get mad at you with that smile, damn I hated that but loved it as well <3. But now what is done is done. I can't go back it's been 2 months now, I tried to put the effort in because, I knew I was the one that made the mistake. However, you didnt seem to put in any at all which didnt seem worth it anymore. For all this hurt, the crying at night, my prayers to have you back into my life. But dont get me wrong, I dont want you back in my life as a dating situation. However, a friendship.. you were my bestfriend and when I lost you I lost my best friend as well. You knew everything about me, stuff no one knew. You were the first person I go to when my eyes are balling. You were the one that took care of me when no one else cared. Man, I lost a good one. I will never forget you, you'll always be in my heart. I hope we will become the way we were before all this mess.. even though it would hurt to see you fall in love with another girl. I'll be strong because, losing all of you is tough enough having half of you is better than nothing. I just wish you knew how I felt... and I wish you would jus tell me you're over me than maybe I could move on quicker. Remember your promise to me, when we broke up... I do, you would tell me when your over me and you wouldnt fall for another girl. Than boy, why havent you told me and let me rest in peace =[. I wish you knew how I felt but boy.. I got way too much pride.. and really what's the point now.. 2 months have gone by we're talking okay.. I dont wanna ruin the only chance I have to being your friend again.. I still love you... wish you knew. Oh and tomm... if we were still dating..... would be our 6th month.. for some reason I have a feelin u have a new girl.. but damn that girl better appreciate you unlike I did. I <3 u...
