Open your eyes..
Seriously, people need to open up their eyes these days. They always stick with one story, only listen to one story, pretend everything is perfect... well guess what open up ur damn eyes and see it's not. Do not judge someone just because you heard something from another person. Did you even ask for the other persons side of the story! Like honestly, people just jump into conclusions! Just because one person says something doesn't mean they are telling the truth. You honestly believe that crap? It doesnt even make senseee!!! You don't know what goes on in people lives so don't just asume things, and put a label on them! Honestly, I would think you guys would be the one who would know not to label people and make drama. Open up your minds and eyes... don't be so closed minded. If this keeps going on... ur going to just push everyone away. They would like to come to a place feeling at home, safe, and stress free. But with all this drama you guys bring up you make it feel like jail, stress, everyone pushin up on you. Everywhere you go you see them stalkin your life. How would you like it if people would glare, make up crap, label, and yell at you for being yourself or for things that were made up... You would be stressed and pissed... All I'm asking is listen to the other story before you go jumping into conclusion cuz that conclusion u made could ruin someones life. So OPEN UP YOUR EYES PLEASE =]
Life
As we all know we only have one life. One life to cherish forever. Everyones life is a gift to us. Some of us cherish it, some of us dont even try. Open up your damn eyes, you have one life and only one life to live. Take risks, have some fun, live each of your days the fullest, because you never know what will happen the next day. Your life could be taken away just in a snap. It was given to you as a gift but unlike other gifts it can be taken back. Make mistakes in life, don't be afraid and learn from them. If you never try how would you ever know. It's like leaving a present unopen. Yes, there are things that you shouldnt be trying that could end up in jail or the graveyard. However, there are other thing you can try. Don't be locked up in your fantasy world that everything is perfect, and this has to go this way and this way. Open up your damn eyes! IT'S NOT PERFECT! Life isnt a list, it isn't organized. It's messy and confusing, but that's the adventure of it. Life is full of mysteries yet to discover! Everything can't go exactly how you planned, pefert job, perfect husband/wife, perfect wedding. Well sorry to break it up to you it's not PERFECT. Nothing is perfect in this world, and that's the cool thing about it. It's unique, fun and exciting! If everything was perfect, our world would be filled with boring robots in black and white. A perfect movie to represent what I'm talking about is pleasentville... wow I actually learned something in school for once. Life is not perfect, please don't set a list of how things should go! Just live and go with the flow!!!! Take risks, don't let crap get to you it's not worth it! I always thought that life was always what to do, what I should do, what was right and perfect. I lived a life full of crap, because I thought everything around me was perfect... there was no such thing as sex before marriage, drugs, smoking, and all this crap. I knew there was such thing, but I never thought it happens. Until people opened my eyes. Life isn't a perfect little world you live in. However, now I learned to live my life freely because you have one life don't waste it being worried about every single thing. Just think wisely and you'll be fine =]. Because life isn't full of lists, it's going with the flow =].
Should I?
... I'm so confused, I want to talk to him but I dont.
The more I talk to him the more I fall into that trap that
will hurt me. So should I tell him we shouldn't talk for now...
However, that would make it so awkward... and I know that even if
I'm going to lose a great friend atleast I'm not going to be hurting anymore.
However, I was wrong loosing such a great friend is going to kill me.
It's stressing me out so much right now, especially when his the
one asking me what is stressing me out. I really want to tell him
so I can breathe but I dont because I still want to talk to him and
I don't want to lose him. His asking and asking... he really wants to know
so he can help me with it. However, he doesnt even know that it's about him.
He said his good with helping with stress, but he probably doesnt know what to
say about this stress. That I dont want to talk to him cuz the more I do
I fall into the trap, that's the reason i always text him so late in the day. This is because I always fail and need to text you. So I dont know if I should keep txting you or stop. He'll prob be so shocked that he'll be speechless...I'm so lost and confused. What should I do...? To go on and know that I'm bulidin a huge suffering and hurt at the end. Or just end it now even tho I'm going to suffer loosing such a great friend. Sigh... I dont know...
hurting myself...
Everytime, I talk to you I feel so happy
but everytime I talk to you I'm hurting myself
inside. I dont know what to do. The more I talk
to you, the more I fall deeper into that trap.
I thought telling you, would make you back off
and than I would forget you. But no, you didn't
you became nicer, saw me more.. what do you want from
me. You know, I know you have ur one true already. So
can't you just leave me alone. However, when you leave me
alone I feel so empty, but when you talk to me I feel so
empty too. You don't know how much it hurts to like
someone so much that you can never have.
I just have to be strong, and forget you, stop
talkin to you, erase you out my life... even
if it means loosing such a great friend, cuz it's
hurting me inside more than you think.
"i'm gonna hurt i'm gonna cry i'm gonna tear me up inside i'mma gonna do what I gotta do to unlove you" - Elise Estrada
butterflies..?
Boy, when my phone rings I pray that it is you
Boy, everytime you text me I have that smile on. Carmela knows what I'm talkin about
Boy, when we are about to see each other, my heart is on a race
Boy, you make me so nervous when I look into your eyes
Boy, you make my stomache do a blackflip
Boy, everytime I look into your eyes, I look away..
Boy, it's because I get lost into those eyes
Boy, you make me so nervous, It's as if I couldn't breathe
Boy, my heart skips a beat when I see your face
Boy, you make me run out of words to say
Boy, I wish you could make it easier to hate you
Boy, please... stop talkin to me
Boy, it's because the more you talk to me I fall in deeper
Boy, stop playin with my heart... it's not a game
Boy, let's stop talkin...
Thank you..
storms...
Last night, was the scariest night ever. 2 of my biggest fears came all together at 2 am I'm guessing. Thunder, lighting, and being in the dark alone because of the black out. I never felt so terrified and alone, no one there to come to my support. Good thing, I was texting one of my friends after but still I was still terrifed. All I could think of last night was should I text him? Do you think his awake? I dont wanna wake him up for such a stupid reason..? Well guess what he woke up too because he was camping, the roof was leaking so he woked up soaked. HAHA, I couldn't stop laughing when he told me that this morning. I really hope there won't be another storm tonight, however he said I could text him if it comes back hopefully he wakes up =].One simple thing he says can make me me have the biggest smile on my face. He said we were best friends, and I dont wanna ruin that for confessing... So, I'm just going to hide my smile for now... =] I really hope he does really wake up if there is another storm because his probably the only one that can make me smile while I'm terrifed. Even though my summer sucks this year, he made it up =]
Guess who I ran into at Market with Carmela.. TANYA!! HAHA, I was really happy that I could hang out with both of my besties together, even though it was a little awkward. I wish that we could all be besties 3 girls haha. However, that will never happen but it really made me happy today =]. Highlight of my day probably!! =]
